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Thursday, April 30, 2009

ke'merepek'an yg nyata

ernie skype aku tadi...
ckp byk post marah2...
haha...
isu lapuk da tu ernie...
so leh abaikan...

td paper yg aku plg takut...
PROCESS CONTROL N DYNAMICS
masuk lewat skit...
lepas duduk, Yap whispered to me...
X SENANG!!
OMG!!
matilah~

and the questions were...
no comment...
King did explain some questions...
but i was too busy to question the questions back during the final...
haha!!!
that affect pretty much...
got confused and...
no more excuses la...
bottomline, i didnt answer to my best...

whatever it is,
i'm so eager.. waiting for 27th may...
yeah... going back 3 weeks late...
but doesnt matter...
here's my rough plan...

25th may - finishes all activity and going back to UniMAP... do all the laundry and simple room grooming...
26th may - final packing and going to Penang on the evening... together with Nara n Jas maybe...
then depends on what they're going to do in Penang... I prefer doing nothing but going straight to the airport n wait there (lagipun tgh pokai)...
27th may - another reason why i prefer staying at the airport... i do not have to rush... haha!!! besides, i'm sort of a night crawler... so sleeping should not be a problem... my flight is at 10am...
arrive at KKIA at about 12pm++... my dad will fetch me up n arrived at home 15 minutes later, max...
so... the 1 st week - rehat...
next 1 week - spend time with friend ( not neccesarily 1 week in a row)
next 1 week - spend time with relatives...
next 1 week - spend time with family

haha!!! hebat x?
btw, planning to visit my alma mater...
sms labuan...
dgn Fauzi n for sure, Saifullah...
bah pa lagi geng? jom ramai2 jumpa d Labuan...
rindu dah sma tomyam di food court UK... nasi ayam... boling... purnama...
then Pullah, mlm kita p Poppin'!!!
owh... this will be among cuti yg plg busy skali....
and i even plan for a part time job....

looking forward for it...

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

penghabisan

okay2...
mulai saat ini...
aku declare ISU INI TAMAT!!!!
kesimpulan,
2 2 pihak salah....
pihak di sana salah sbb terlalu sensitive n emotional...
pihak aku sma gak...
semua ni bermula hanya kerana shout out...
sebab actually, aku terasa juga dgn some shout out dlm skype aku...
that's why dari da reda (aku padam da shout out tu)....
trus aku counter attack (buat shout out baru)...
n semua yg JAHAT2 aku post b4 this...
apply to me as well
tp jgn nak naik kepala pulak....
cakap diri sendiri x salah...
ni dah kira baik ak amalkan WIN-WIN SITUATION...




bad habit ni mmg susah nk hilang kn??
ak masih lg panas baran...
n masih lg dikawal oleh emosi...
bila da emosi... 1 kerja x jalan...
okla kengkawan...
mulai hari ni,
AKU AKAN MULA MELASER...
KALO AKU TAK SUKA, AKU CAKAP STRAIGHT FORWARD...
JADI JGN MELATAH BILA TETIBA KENA LASER K?
n please... dont questioned why i use blog to express my feelings...
SUKA HATI AKULA!!!
KO SAPE NAK CONTROL AK????
KO PANGKAT PE??
PARENT AKU PUN X BISING AKU MARAH2 DLM BLOG!!!!
WATCH IT!!!JGN KACO COMFORT ZONE AKU!!

headline pun WHAT I SEE, WHAT I HEARD, WHAT I FEEL...
what do you expect me to write?
post2 bodek???
GTH!!!

isu tak habis lagi??

terpanggil untuk mempertahankan diri sekali lg...
harap dpt jelaskn keadaan... or keruhkan lg?
up to you la...
bermula dgn jiwa kacau...
kalau niat nak share, x perlu tunggu last minute...
or maybe sebab berpegang pd prinsip ... usaha lebih utk hasil lbh...
so kami2 yg x usaha ni x layak dpt...
whateverla kan... tu cuma anggapan aku... xkan tu pun nk bangkang kn?
tp kalo rasa apa yg dibuat betul or da laksanakan tanggungjawab...
kenapa mesti melatah??
i quoted back
KPD SESIAPA YG DAPAT TIPS BIOCHEM TU, SELAMAT BERJAYA.SEMOGA DEKAN SEM INI
skrg, cb nyatakan dlm ayat tersebut perkataan mana yg MENJURUS kpd KUMP/INDIVIDU secara SPECIFIC???
in fact, kalo da rasa diri tu betul, frasa tu bole dilihat dr segi positif...
aku x taw apa org rasa..
tp bg aku, bila apa yg kt buat positif, kita fikir positif n vice versa...
bukan seorang yg ada tips... aku rasa lebih dari itu...
so kenapa bole wujud pihak yg terasa n pihak yg x terasa?
isu ni aku rasa simple...
sebab,
isu ni x sebabkn rusuhan...
isu ni x sebabkan pembunuhan...
isu ni x sebabkan 1 school x dpt jawab final...
kenapa harus diperbesarkan????
kalo nak jaga hati seseorang...
hati-hati yg lain mcam mana?
adil??
terpulang~

kalo sblm ni aku cakap aku undur diri bukan bermaksud aku kalah...
kali ni aku UNDUR DIRI MENGALAH!!
fed up!!
fyi, aku ni glgn yg xperlu dipandang pun...
aku tau aku ni sampah yg hina...
jadi mulai hari ini, please dont consult me 4 anything...
AND PLEASE DONT BOTHER ANYTHING I SAID...
sebab takut ada yg TERSALAH TAFSIR SEBAB SENSITIVE SGT...
aku translate - DAN JGN AMBIL PEDULI APA YANG AKU PERKATAKAN SELEPAS INI...
anda berada di kelas anda yg jauh bezanya dgn kelas saya...
lbh jauh beza drpd bumi dan langit....
semoga bahagia dgn hidup anda...
dan saya terus dgn kehidupan sampah lg hina sya ni...
adil kan?

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

again and again...

at the end of the day...
i still cannot answer...
despite all the efforts to re-do all tutorials and assignments...
no one to be blame...
except myself...
i was so jealous when all my friends walked out not too depressed compared to me
does my IQ really below their par??
or was it because I 've grew older... it's hard for me to remember things...
hmm...
moral down la~
tp still have 2 papers...
i've to be professional...
as a student, i have to endure it all...
though I have to fake my feeling...
whateverla...
x sabar nak cuti...
lthn hutan tu pun mcm xde mood jer ak nk p...
mst byk yg poyo t....
nyampah~
nak balik!!!

entri susulan~

chuckle...
elkcuhc...
chuckle...
elkcuhc...

damn!
i am now only 40% ready for BIOCHEMICAL ENGINEERING...
and after 10 am today,
i'll only TAKE A GLANCE on what GBS had told me...
n going to meet Amir at 10.30 am...
need him for some clarification~

by the way,
my friends (not to be mention here... you guys know who you are) showed me something last night...
i dont know what to say...
kalau itu ditujukan kepada aku... then aku gelak besar!
kalau itu x ditujukan kepada aku... aku ttp akan gelak besar...
means that finally there's someone yg let it out...
instead of makan hati sorang2...

(fikiran jahat)
tp ak x letak nama sape2 pun dlm shout out aku...
kenapa mesti ada shout out yg tba2 bertukar dgn drastik??
confius2...
ala... orang x kan cakap belakang kalo xde sebab...
org dlu2 ckp, pokok xkan goyang kalau angin x bertiup~
kalau nak fitnah pun, mst ada sebab...
tp kes aku lain... aku generalize kan shout out aku...
x tuju kat sape2...
even GBS tny pun aku cam reluctant skit nk confess...
tp dorg kawan aku... mst da bole baca perangai aku... mst da bole baca jawapan aku...
so, relevan tak kalo nk tuduh ak fitnah sape2?? ( xde kaitan pun)

(fikiran baik)
hmm... maybe something happened between si polan itu ngan si polan yg lain...
i dont know...
so benda tu bukan ditujukan kepada ak...

tp kan....
why do i prefer FIKIRAN JAHAT more?
why people?why???
tell me...
(chuckle)

kesimpulan - aku minta maaf kepada sesape yg terasa... sape makan cili, dia rasa pedas...
(smile)... untuk kali ini, aku undur diri... bukan maksud kalah... tapi sebab xnak jadi isu berpanjangan... aku dah bosan jadi RANDY sekolah menengah... atau RANDY matriks...
ini aku yg baru(walaupun hipokrit)... RANDY UniMAP... (puke)

Monday, April 27, 2009

tahniah!!! wtf?!!

why people?
why?
feeling insecure?
kenapa xnak share?
supaya korang bole berada di atas?
dan kami di bawah?
sy da tawar hati...
sy x peduli...
selamat berjaya sy ucapkan...
semoga beroleh anugerah dekan sem ini...
tahniah sy ucapkan...
truskan sikap MURNI anda...
sy salute anda~
andalah yg terbaik...
terbaik di antara yg terbaik....
tahniah sekali lg...

Monday, April 20, 2009

so-called story of my life~

i was blog-hooping just now
*(mg cari nahas tul kan? ada 4 chapter TITAS x start baca lg)

and i caught up something interesting in someone's blog...
i have the same plot he had...
so here's my version...

I'll never believe that I'm a good student...
I'm an average student...
average student who works hard for something...
*(works hard? bole caya ka?? i doubt that too.. haha)
together with my friends, we scored straight 5A's for our UPSR...
and I got an offer to enter a boarding school... Sek. Men. Sains Labuan...
frankly, I was left far behind by all the smart students there...
and I realized I need to do something to catch up...
luckily, I was among those student who scored straight 7A's in PMR...
and my momentum went well as I scored another straight 10A's in SPM (7A1, 3A2)

with that result, I filled up as many scholarship application forms as i could...
including the JPA..
i was on top of the world when i got accepted for the next stage...
during the interview session, i was in the same group with my neighbour cum childhood friend cum ex-classmate... Oliver...
in the group of 8, there were only the 3 of us who really outshine the rest...
some couldnt use English properly and some EVEN MISUNDERSTOOD the question...
but it came out that the 3 of us did not get the scholarship...
for sure, i was totally devastated not to mention, Oliver...
we were talking about that interview when we learned that one of the guy did get the scholarship despite how he misunderstood the question and how he didnt use english properly...
there were no tears.. only fury...
i told my mom that this is unfair and everything that i've been working for was a waste...
then she calmed me...
saying that it's not good to envy people's luck... and my turn will soon come...

but I nearly destroyed my future when i did so badly during my matriculation year...
my friends were saying that i was just too frustrated with the turn down of my overseas dream...
but they were wrong!
i'm not a smart student...
i need efforts and that was what i lack back then
when i registered for UniMAP...
my mom's word came true...
I got an offer to do HND in UK...
but guess what? i declined the offer...

i realized that it's just the matter of place and environment...
i can study anywhere...
what really matters are my efforts...
that will make my achievement even sweeter knowing how hard i work for it...
hahaha!!!

but dear friends...
i'm a big talker...
up until now, i still havent shown any progress...
haha!!!
yet i have to maintain my cgpa to keep my scholarship...
so, by hook or by crook,
i'll struggle to at least scored 3 and above...
now back to business...

TITAS Mode... Henshin!!!!

'BS'ing due to saturated mind... wtf?

hahaha!!!

hahaha!!!

hahaha!!!

they said laughter is the best medicine...
is it?
so y m i still in this severe stress mood???
despite of having some laughter? thrice!!!
nothing changes...
except for some cramp on my stomach muscles...
whateverla~

the point is...
i'm having my 1st paper tomorrow...
damn haven't completely ready for it...
i'm thinking of tackling down only the 1st 3 chapters...
hopefully it will works...
(rofl)

hahaha!!!
(now that's 4... but still no changes)

blackout

last night...
i woke up at 3.30am...
it was too hot for a night...
i went outside for some fresh air and suddenly...
BLACK OUT!!!
i thought there were nothing since it was 3.40am or something....
tp as soon as semua lampu went off...
1 blok melalak!!!
ya... MELALAK!!
tolongla... black out jer pun...
perlu ke nak jerit mcm esok da nak mati da??
eh, come on la...
kita bertamadun... tunjukla skit...
bukan nk halang kebebasan korang nk menjerit2...
tp pukul 3.40am??
wlupun study week, waktu tu da byk yg tidur kot...
x pandai bertimbang rasa ke?
ni siap main mercun lg.... isk3... tatawla apa nk jadi...
korang taw tak... lg byk korang jerit, lbh byk korang gerak... keadaan makin panas??
bukan keadaan jer yg panas... HATI pun panas gak...
kalo tension sgt pun, try la cara lain nak lepas...
jgn la pentingkn diri sgt smpi org lian yg tataw pape terganggu...
kan sia2 da kena carut...
nasib baik ak bole control emosi ak yg mmg panas sebab mmg panas tu...
kalo x, ada jer yg kn tengking...

apa2pun... ak ad dgr dr senior... konon2nya, time blackout tu, ada hilaian kedengaran kat Student Mall... hilaian apa, ak tataw... korang wat la andaian logik masing2 k?

Sunday, April 19, 2009

syndrome final??

syndrome final...
ni antara yg bole dibaca kat shout out2 skype member2 ak...
(chuckle)

1. minta maaf semua...final da dkt..bersama kita menggapai bintang

2. i dare mysef walk through the black body, run acros convection &conduction, being radiated, rush into dryer, jump on the evaporator, letting the mass being transfer just to see you my love. (h)

3. [ kAmI yAnG teRkEpIT.. toLoNgLa BeRi SeDiKit rUaNg ] [CoNtInUoS ReAcTiOn aLSo caN'T ExCeeD My CoNTiNuOs LoVe FoR U ]

4. AnY FinAL cOntRoL elemeNts or VaLveS cAn'T cOnTrOL mY LoVe fLow RaTe to FaLL iN lOVe wiTh U... (love) (drunk) *ErTi HiDuP PaDa MeMbERi*

5. |-) || I NeEd U MoRe ThAn aN EnZyMe NeEd A SuBsTrAtE (h) || .:mind.re-installation:.

tu baru student... kalo lecturer plak...

6. tired.......

7. To my students: If your eyes are blinded with your worries, you cannot see the beauty of the sunset. Good Luck for final exam. Ganbatte ne..

yg ni plak dak2 LI

8. (rock) free-doom (h)(inlove) ..i dont want to go back to wang ulu..l.i best....arrrghhhhh!!!!

yg ni plak yg da nak grad

9. sayonara dunia kampus... :(;(:(;(


dan utk yg final ni... shout out ak...

hari ini dlm sejarah, 18/4 - 1st time kalah ngan King... tp 1 set jerla... 4-6... x sempat nk proceed... damn!!!

dan ini balasannya...

randy, kalah tu tetap kalah even 1 set.hahaha


kesimpulan - syndrome final -> xde keja nak wat sebab sdy da x le masuk da... so copy profile org jerla...

Saturday, April 18, 2009

know ur enemy for an absolute victory!

1 way to win is to know your enemy...
but in my case...
there's no enemy... but ENEMIES!!!

21/4 - TITAS
22/4 - Thinking Skills
24/4 - Reaction Engineering
28/4 - Biochemical Engineering
30/4 - Process Control and Dynamics
6/5 - Heat and Mass Transfer

now that I've known my enemies..
will i ever be able to tackle them down???
i hate when i get myself confused!!!!
damn it!

hahaha....
whatever it is,
friends, it's not too late...
there's still time to squeeze some brain... *okay, my mistake... there's still A LITTLE time...
lets break some legs!!
yeah!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

emosi terganggu

sy bukan pelajar pintar...
bukan jg pelajar cemerlang...
sy pelajar normal...
yg perlu masa utk study...
kalau ada yg sempat baca post before sy delete...
anda taula kenapa....
buat masa ni, sy x nak komen panjang2...
buatla apa jua keputusan..
sy ikut...
tp sorry to say...
respect yg sy berikan MAYBE akan hilang...
sebab scr jujurnya,
hati sy skrg ni penuh ngan carutan!!!
just nak ingatkan...
student bukannya robot!!!
student ada emosi!!!
student manusia biasa!!!
student ada limit!!!
student ada hak bersuara!!!
student x perfect!!!
tahap pemikiran anda jauh di hadapan kami...
fikirlah apa yg cuba sy sampaikan....


p/s - sy x sebut nama sesiapa... sy x spesifik kepada sesiapa... kalau ada yg terasa, sy minta maaf... tp sendiri mau ingatlah... kalau kita x buat, kenapa kita nk terasa kan????? dan ini adalah blog sy... sy bebas tulis apa sj... hopefully x jadi kontroversi...

Saturday, April 11, 2009

aku dah nak final dah

actually byk ak nak post sbnrnya...
tp since asyik menangguh jer, semua da lupa...
haha!!!
byk crita... Hazriq ngan no bertuahnya... Makcik ngan selotape mengurai2... Cikun ngan kaki n kerusinya... Cik Mirray ngan 'hantu'nya... hahaha!!!!
tp ada 1 isu tu, aku mmg saja tanak post kat sni...
mmg ini blog aku, aku bebas post anything...
tp after reconsideration... ak wat keputusan utk abaikan jer... pendam sendiri sude...
bukan pe... ak nak tujukan pada org lain... tp nanti org lain plak yg akan terasa...
aku tanak la pasni hubungan ngan member2 pasni renggang...
nak2 lagi study week ni...
(study week la sgt...)
ckp pasal study week... isnin ada 3 lab test (kalo x silap r) ngan 1 presentation and until wed still ad kelas...
so memang study week tu da burn da utk beberapa hari...
time busy nilah aku teringat pesan Guru Wan aku dulu..
dia pernah ckp kat kelas...
"time dekat final, kena extra hati2... byk dugaan yg akan dtg"
so far, bila difikir2kan blk.. mmg btul...
wlupun x kn batang hidung sendiri, tp cukupla menguatkan teori itu...
jgn taktaw, nak dekat final ni la ramai yg akan berkonflik...
ramai yg bepecah...
ramai yg ber'pisah'...
kalau x pandai jg emosi (mcm aku..) byk jer yg akan terasa hati nanti...
tp hopefully benda2 ni x terjadi kat kami...

p/s - member aku accident... kena submit kat hospital sebab kaki patah and berlubang... aku tak taw kalo apa yg aku tulis pasni betul atau salah...
tapi aku suka dia patah kaki... at least dia masih hidup untuk terus berjuang... at least tangan dia x cedera teruk untuk terus study and ambil final.... apa2pun... Amy, be strong!! we'll always be there to support you!!

Monday, April 6, 2009

t+e+n+s+i+o+n

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mata anda x slah...
ak buat ala2 Senyum Kambing...
bg entri kosong (0 la sgt kan??)
sebab pe???
sbgi tanda protes.....
protes pe??
kehidupan pelajarku yg x seronok langsung....
buat masa nila....
lab test + post lab...
lab report...
assignment...
kelas ganti....
lalalala~
...

Thursday, April 2, 2009

taken from junny UTP... friend of Oliver

What do you miss the most?
:my family, my hometown...

What do you do if you meet the person you hate?

:act professional

One item you really want?

:an item to replicate wishes

What do you do if you’re talking to a stupid person?

:nothing... who am I to judge???

Last book you read?

:process control and dynamics... looking for Ziegler-Nichols method

The person you’re thinking of?

:now? there's a bunch of people... hehe

Last gossip you heard?

:last? from MakCik... about that couple... PANDANG KIRI~... haha!!

Last testimonial from?

:Che... regarding my intention to ruin his pic...

Last person to call u?

:MakCik... reminding me to ask about the Ziegler-Nichols

Last person u talked to, about what?

:Pan, my roommate... about the lab result her girlfriend and I share together...

Last 5 places you’ve visited today.

:dragon - finishing up my assignment, online, waiting for the bus

:ILP - conducting my process control and dynamics lab...

:boy's cafe - eat laksa + 4 waffles... 2 peanut butter, 2 chocolate toppings

:Muamalat ATM Machine - allowance check-up and some money withdrawal

:Study room - wandering off for 10 minutes

Last text message you received from..

:Isnap, ak SIBUK JAMMING ok, stiap mlm pulang bilik time subuh..Esok start sdh saringan battle of d band, tapi giliran kami sabtu lh.Nrvous2 - from Oliver, UTP

Last cousins you’ve met?

:my mom's brothers' families...

What did you do this weekend?

: what DID i do? IMT-GT... haven't post the entry yet... hehe~

Last person who kissed you?

:~ in my dream???

Last person who hugged you?

:keluarga angkat during our programme at Ulu Legong

Last person who pinched you?

:MakCik

Last item you bought?

:mobile phone... rm104... basic black n white nokia 1202... RIP to the previous one...

What is the reason you last cried?

:this is not IS... it's ARE... it came as a combo... 1. stress 2. saw something that really touched my heart 3. homesick... (thinking of posting an entry about this... but i've changed my mind)

What is your mood now?

:lazy~

Who did you meet 3 days ago?

:3 days ago? 1. Budi from Univesiti Negeri Medan, 2. Faris from UiTM Arau, 3. Tho from Prince of songkla University 4. Amir, Amin, Hafiz, Alfie, Nad, Asiah, Leong... a lot!!!

3 items that are near you?

: mobile phone, heat and mass transfer book, wallet

Who is your hero?

: My dad

What are your plans for next weekend?

: to finish up all leftovers... and start revising...

Why are you filling this survey?

: i don't know...

5 person you are tagging?

: fell free to tag yourself...