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Wednesday, May 28, 2008

not longer a safe place or attitude??

i don't know whether this claim is true or not... but they once said that HOME is the safest place for us... once, i agreed with that claim... but not now...
i have some neighbours who proved it wrong...
now let me tell some stories...

1ST STORY
they are no different from us... they play like us, they talk like us, they laugh like us and they cry like us... but therell be no tears when they cry... they don't have enough stock of tears for the pain they feel when falling down or hitting walls... or the pain when someone pinch them or even when they are being bullied... nothing will ever wins the strikes from their mother... every night, they scream in pain and begging for thier mother to stop... i don't know what is the function of the father... go to hell if you dont know how to be the head of the house... im not being a busybody but when it happens daily, you might just want to know what are the causes right? but guess what? often the causes are... i dont know... for me those mistakes are better come with advices and not strikes... at one point, their son tried to run away from home... not once but several times and the daughter, turned from a bright girl to a very moody one, not to mention her academic perfomances... well if they are insisting with their own way of educating their child or should i say merely child abuse, at least please consider their neighbour... they need some calm to relieve their exhaustion from work!! not to suffer another sound pollution!!

2ND STORY
opposite to my house, there is one Chinese family... it's okay if they only involved their own family members... but i'll never compromise if they involved 3rd party... never!!!oh if only you know what i mean... the husband erm... the late husband is a gambler... so you know what 3rd party i'm talking about, right? very often, they'll be loud bangs outside their door and it's really annoying! and of course, none of us really dare to get ourselves into the scene... it started at night... but then it 'improved' from day to night... it started maybe once or twice a week but then it 'improved' almost every day in a week!!! sometimes, they'll threat the family for some untold reasons... we know because my sister can comunicate in Mandarin... and there'll be gossips the next day of the same version as what my sister has told us... when the husband died, we heard many rumours... one consistent version is that there was a foul play in his death.. and it has to do with his addiction to gamble... my mom told me that there were no signs of sadness in the faces of both the mother and the daughter... and they were still haunted by the 3rd party for some times... now they are back to normal...

3RD STORY
okay this one is a combination of 2 different stories... firstly, there was one time when a fire started in one house at the ground level... and the house was inoccupied!!! what the hell??? we have to break down the window to put the fire out... the cause of the fire? an overheated kettle on stove... then few minutes later, the tenant came and she was shocked to death!!! her excuse? she said don't interupt her life and try to teach her when we advice her... she was too busy and had to do few things at the same time so she should not be blame for that?? hello???? is that how to behave when you just nearly causes a great loss?? duh!!! at least say sorry and thank you!!! the recent case was a snatch theft... guess what? it was morning! 8am in the morning... what happened people???

so, is it still appropriate to say that HOME IS THE SAFEST PLACE? or is it due to ATTITUDE that invites all the troubles??



peace!!
-out-

Sunday, May 25, 2008

stacy...

it has finally ended... David Cook and Stacy are both winners in thier own way... American Idol and Akademi Fantasia may not be identical but they are similar in some aspects... both programmes are popular reality TV shows, both required voters to give their votes to the contestants thier rooting for, both produce surprises mostly every week and the judges from both programmes have no veto power in determining the champion... hahaha!!!! but they do have advantages in affecting voters' psychologically by giving so-called-killer-critics... hahaha!!!!
anyway, i've been rooting for Stacy since she was with E-voke... for the Gangstarz S1 reality tv shows... thier moves were perfectly choreographed and they were among the best group... although i would prefer to label them as an average group... but that's okay... it's hard to find such groups or artists that excel in both singing and dancing, in Malaysia...

she's no different with Mila... both deserve the champion... and thanks to thier talent and determination... like one of the judges said, Stacy never make things difficult or in a proper way, she takes everything easily but gives her best to fulfil her responsiblities... people know Stacy did not even take her SPM but her way of thinking is far better than some of us... really... she wanted to improve peoples' mentality and way of thinkings... maybe you might say that she's copycating someone's phrase but that's enough to show that she's concern about our society... hey, someone cannot think that way if they dont have wide knowledge about our citizen lifestyle afterall... and she quit because she wanted to lessen her family burden... now who's on earth today are willing to sacrifice that way? i bet MOST will ended up with various juvenile deliquencies... she appeared to be the most rationale contestant because she never even fussed about the challenges she has to deal with... she knows that it'll makes her stronger... during the concert where she sang HATI, i was totally captivated with her way of singing the song... and to my shock, she was suffering from a flu(if i'm not mistaken) and she barely had the voice to sing... she even received some injections before she went to perform that night... but i guess only those who really close with the management team will know that... see? she didnt brought it up... she's being professional...

that's one good example for all of us... especially students.... whenever we were given assignments, never fuss... instead treat them as easy as we can... basically, everything is about mindset... you said it difficult and it'll be difficult, vice versa.... and talking about responsiblities, please play your part when it comes to group work... it's not fair being a free rider... think what your group members might think about you... it's bad to hurt your friends feelings...

i guess i just wanted to post something so i eventually made this post... i am satisfied now... hahahahaha!!!! once again, CONGRATULATION COOK, STACY!!!!! YOU'RE THE BEST!!! LOVE YOU!!! MMMMMMMMUAHXXX!!!!

peace!!!
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Friday, May 23, 2008

i really.... hahahaha!!! FUNNY!!!

During my flight from Penang to Kota Kinabalu on the 19th of May, an American sat next to me. So being a so called courtesy Malaysian, I smiled to him. That smile was a starting point for our conversation... a very interesting conversation...

Mr. Douglas is his name. He's been in Malaysia several times and he was very excited because it was his first time to Sabah. He'll stay there for 3 days and he asked me for some interesting places in Kota Kinabalu and in a nick of time, I apologized. Being away from Kota Kinabalu for some time causes me to be uncertain of where to go when you come to Kota Kinabalu. I'm quite embarrassed but since I know that American is a straight-forward type, I guess he'll understood my condition... hehehe(chuckle).

Slowly, our conversation grew heavier... we even touched some politics which I really have no clues at all!!! He compared Malaysia with other Asean countries... I really don't know if he did that because I'm a Malaysian or because he really meant it... but he seems really in love with Malaysia. He even compared his country with Malaysia and he claimed that Malaysia is far better though we are still developing from times to times. He told me that his country is full with corruption especially in the government... which is similar to our scenario... I tried to explain to him that corruption is everywhere, even in a small country like Malaysia... but he looked really disappointed with his own country. There are thousands who worked for the government and they know the truth but they are too afraid to stand up because it will risk their life as well as their family.

Surprisingly, he started the 11/9 issue. In his opinion, that was all a perfectly masterminded infamous corrupt plan... he said that it is impossible for a 757 or 767 plane to cause a devastating effect on the WTC... besides, during the crash, most witnesses claimed that they heard sound from the bottom part of the building... so what was that all about? A crash at the upper part but a sound from the bottom part... sounds weird huh?? Then he said that Bush is a genius... very damn infamous genius... Mr. Douglas told me that Osama bin Laden was dead in the year of 2001 but they still claimed that he's alive and use that reason to do whatever they like... for me... I don't give a fuck about that... as long as my country is save, anything should be fine... you might say that I'm a selfish but what else can we do? Despite efforts to stop the useless war, we still cannot do anything as Bush's words are veto... he's word is final and there's really nothing we can do... protest? ban?riot? Come to think about it, will it ever succeed?? If the answer is NO, then why waste time? It's better to plan something reasonable in a more human way to deal with the problem... and let God decides... we plan but God will have the final word... everything happens for a reason...

Hey, he also told me some fact that really eyes-bulging... Bush is a GAY! He was part of the cheerleading team back when he was in high school or college... I really don't believe it but Mr. Douglas seems so firmed with that fact... but being a person who would not judge anyone based on their sex orientation, it's not a big deal for me... really... our conversation was religious too... mainly about Jews, Christianity and Islamic... but most of the time, from the way he spoke, I can concluded that he actually despise Jews... maybe he has his own reasons but I'm not asking... I was really sleepy at that time and I needed something to end our conversation...

our conversation was more than that... but i cannot remember them all... so before i gave wrong information, i think i better stop here....


peace!!
-out-

Sunday, May 18, 2008

report!!! (i'll post more pictures... just make sure you keep viewing this post)

now i have some free time, i'll post what i've done during the one week camp....
as soon as we arrived from our 2nd industrial... we have about one hour left before the bas came... so i took the chance to re-pack my stuff... hehehe!!!!!
okay, so we went to Kulim straight at about 1425 hour... and we arrived at the PGA Batalion 2 at about 1845 hour... we had a little rest before our first session started...


















these are the summary of our 6 days camp activities....

1st session, 8pm, PENCAIRAN (a.k.a icebreaking)
2nd session, 8am, TRIVIA
3rd session, 2pm, TRIVIA extended + Grouping
4th session, 8pm, Games
5th session, 8am, PROJEK MESRA (MAIN TUTUP MATA)
6th session, 2pm, Group Presentation
7th session, 8pm, AKU
8th session, 8am, Talk
9th session, 3pm, Talk extended
10th session, 8pm, AKU DAN PERUBAHAN
11th session, 8am, AKU DAN PERUBAHAN extended
12th session, 3pm, Visit
13th session, 8pm, Rehearsal
14th session, 8am, Closing Ceremony


















Overall i would rate this camp as the best ever... erm... okay, let me make this as among the best camp i ever attended... SM Arshad told us before that the camp will be dreadful... but it was totally different when we came... i tought that SM might be lying to make us more serious during the camp, however, during the last day of the camp... the facilitators confessed that we are among the best trainee they ever had... as well as our Jurulatih as the Urusetia...so being among the best, there were really nothing they need to push hard on us because we know what we should know... and we ended up saving a lot of time to SLEEP... hahaha!!!! Come to think about it, it was mainly because we already heard our Jurulatih's experience during the camp... so we argue less and we tried to tolerate most of the time and it worked!!! but the way they execute the camp was really awesome!!!! more activities... less talks!!! hahaha!!! but really it was great!!
















in my opinion, the camp was mostly to train us to be more confident when talking to the public which is the essential element as a student... because a student needs to know how to appear in the public... not just to get information, but as well as a preparation to the working world... it will be a good start with a good PR... my cousin Melissa, once told me that learning is just a preparation before jumping into the working world because it will be totally different from what we have theoretically and to have education... here, they said the same thing...
















the core values that they want to convey was really easy to understand... i guess that's another reason why we seems to be so like home during the camp... however, there were few mates of me with quite annoying attitude... if we need only one leader, then why imitating like one when we already chosed one? and why do we need to boast when we know how small we are... hey, everybody makes mistakes... its common and its not something that should be highlighted like forever.... let them to learn from thier mistakes... not to trigger them to be ashamed of thier own mistakes... hello!!!! would you like someone do the same thing to you?? i dont think so!!!! and another thing... we are MALAYSIAN.. we come from different background... so its our responsibilities to learn the cultures available in Malaysia... learn the dos and donts... or at least have some knowledge on them so the next time, you would not create any unwanted controversional scenes... and we should not expect every Malaysian to be the same... prepare for the worst... and have your plan B ready to deal with that situation... i'm not telling that i'm good but that is what i do... and i manage to cope with my early life in the new environment... at least it gives us some time to get to know each other better......




















peace!!
-out-

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Industrial Visit 2

hahaha... if last time we went to Fermpro Sdn. Bhd. to see how ethanol are manufactured... this time around, we went to Kilang Gula Felda Perlis...
we were all excited or at least me because most of us were thinking of going back... as usual, as we arrived, we ate some buns and this time around, since there were no molases with that OMG smell, i ate my bun... and thanks because it was a chocolate bun and not that anchovy bun... hahahaha!!!





so we went to the... er... i think it's the conference room.... whatever....
then it was time for some briefing...
unfortunately.... before the briefing started, the person in charge (PIC) told us that we cannot go to where the operation of producing sugar held... WHAT??? ARE YOU TRYING TO SAY THAT WE WAIT FOR THIS DAY TO COME BUT WE CANNOT WATCH ANYTHING?? damn!!! most of us were so frustrated including Dr. Zarina and Miss KFK... Dr. Zarina tried to coax by telling the PIC that before this, they can watch how the operation goes... but that doesnt work! the PIC told that it was mainly because of our large number (about 50++) ... they didnt want to take risk by letting all of us go in one strike.... but i think that was acceptable because we knew that once an accident occured, they have to stop the operation for quite some time... then productivity wil be affected... so they have to double pay, 1 for the accident and 1 for the production... it'll be a great loss... so we only get the theoretical aspects of producing sugar which was useless because we ourselves can get the information if we want too... then it was time for some refreshment...





when we thought of going back staright away after the refreshment... the PIC came and told us that we can go to watch how the sugars are packed...... we were so happy that we finished our meal in 1 gulp...hahahaha!!!joking!!
we have some cam whoring session before went straight away to the packing site....
once again, what a waste of time!!!!!!!!!!! it was just as the same as what we can see on the television... only here we got a bigger view.... and we could only watch the simple part where the labour needs only to attach the empty plastic bag onto the machine and the machine will proceed... and we were given only less than 10minutes to watch....
duh!!! if you feel guilty because we cannot watch the operation, then dont allow us come in the first place!!!! YOU"RE WASTING OUR TIME!! but looking on the bright side, it was good for us... somehow, hopefully.........





so that was it... totally not interesting compared to Fermpro..(Fermpro buy the molases here)


peace!!!
-out-

so good to be back...

phew!!!
it was a hectic week for me...
i finished my last paper on the 8th of May....
then i have to pack all my stuff... and transfer them to the other block...
in less than 4 days...
okay guys.. don't be deceived by the '4 days'... i still have to do lots of chores... and 4 days seems like 4 seconds for me...
so in that 4 days i struggled to get everything done and thanks God i did it... of course you'll never find the 'PERFECT' done in those job... hahahahaha!!!!!
anyway.... i'll be back to my hometown on the 19th of May... the reason that i can only be back on the 19th is because i have to attend a camp/course... Kursus Etika Dan Pengurusan Integriti which started on the 12th...and guess what? together with some other coursemate, zul, cepot, pan, L, dayah, doy (there are actually nadia who quit not long before and ilya who cannot atend because she's going to the US) and also the PPMS too, we have to go for the 2nd trip because we have our own agenda from 8am-12pm... 
but as the headline goes... it's so good to be back... i'm done with that now and now am waiting to go back....
this is just a discalimer to tell that i'm back and will be posting more... hehehe.... hopefully....
i'll post the activity after this....
before i end, i'd like to wish Happy Mothers Day, Happy Fathers Day and Happy Teachers Day to all parents especially my Mom and my Dad and all the teachers as well as the leacturers throughout the world!!!!


peace!!
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Wednesday, May 7, 2008

~miserable day~

argh!!!!!!!!
today is the most miserable day for this week.... so far
i know tomorrow will be worst than today...
yeah.... just finished taking one of my killer subject... Engineering Microbiology
actually i was down when it comes to this subject... i really dont even bother to at least read the lecture notes... i just dont get the mood... and i pretty damn sure that i'll get nothing when i read them with no mood.... so i dozed off early... 12am and wake up at 7.30am....
then i started to flip some pages of the books... yeah... its BOOKS and not BOOK

*3 books that i used...  the authors are (Prescott, Harley, Klein), Bauman, and Batzing
        


and read some notes that i personally targeted to come out as the killing questions later on... and i did read some infos on some tips given by the lecturers and i tried to recall every discussion we had before.....
and i memorized some of the microorganisms classification on my way to the exam centre....
and when the time has come, i opened my question paper and guess what....?
most of the topics that i had read before coming here was on the question... or at least related.... i was so damn happy... for a moment.... then i realized i lost all the points and i was hopeless!!
i tried so hard to memorize but to no avail...
as a last resort, i just put some answer for every questions.... and i'm not thinking whether it is acceptable or not... i reminded myself... keep answering although it's just a little crap which apparently most of my answers are craps.... i really cursed myself for being such a quitter... one thing i've never done in my 20 years of living on this earth!!!
and after the allocated time was over... i started to regret evrything... if only i read those notes... if only i put more attitde in revising... if only i pay attention in the class... if only i'm a little more hardworking...
whatever!!what has been past should be left behind... it should be a lesson for me.... a lesson to mature me in the future...
that's all for today.....
i'm full right now... KFC Chicken Rice + Coke + Chessy Wedges... what a dinner... thank you Ilya for giving us the ride.......
got to go.... need to catch some 40winks before the struggle starts again..........



peace!
-out-

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

"why people?why?why?"

c.h.a.n.g.e = change
everybody needs changes... we need changes because we want to be better than yesterday, in every aspects of life... social, wealth, health, love.... and the list goes on.....
yes, that's true and we are looking forward for changes in our lives most of the time...
unfortunately, it's a disaster when you employ changes in a wrong way...
i'm no different from you guys... i'm a human too...
i have feelings and sometimes, i need a little time for me to be alone.... which is the quality time for me to reevaluate all the things that i've done in the past... i need to learn from my mistakes... and it is not easy to track back all silly things i've done... that's the answer why i need more time to be alone.... after all, it's not always an easy way when you need to fix something right? so can you guys please understand my situation?
what's so hard for being supportive friends instead of being lame friends? is it neccessary to spread the news to the world... telling them i've changed without even asking me the why i've changed?
why do you guys have to do that? why people?why?why?
for your information, i'm still the old me... you can always come and we can always have a good time together like before... there's nothing wrong with it... it's not like forever i need my time to be alone... the time has passed and i'm pretty sure you guys noticed that... but what's with that cold behaviour?? what does a friendship means to you?? is it something that you can turn on and turn off whenever you like? or is it something you cherished in your life?
this is another reason why i stated that i yet to have bestfriends here, in this new place....
imagine, it took me for about 13years to declare oliver, razi and dick lee as my bestfriends and it took me at least 7years to open my heart for some of my new bestfriends, azizul, saifullah, carlson, umairah, khairunnisa..... they are my true friends that laughed and cried with me....
so if you are happened to read this blog, and you know who i meant... i hope you understand... and if you are not interested in having a blessed friendship anymore.... i'm fine with it... i'm so thankful for the time we had together and i wish you luck for your future...............


-peace-
out

Sunday, May 4, 2008

industrial visit

before i proceed...it's been a while since i last blogged...
really could not find time to blog...
but now, i'll steal some time to blog because i'm tired of reading those notes...
huhu...anyway, last friday we have our first industrial visit after being postponed several times...
it was a visit to FERMPRO SDN. BHD.
eurgh!!!even before we landed our feet on to the ground (in the bus), we could already felt that 'attractive' smell of molases... it was pretty weird because the other day when En. Khairul brought the molases sample into the class, it did smell good... but it turned out completely different here....
some of us even feeling like throwing up...

1.me+yap+cepot+mun ting+isaac+cheryl+L+kurt


then after we ate the ikan bilis@anchovy buns which i didnt because of the smell... we went in the office... it was quite a  small office... and we went straight to the small board room and i expected that we would have some briefing session... but i was wrong... when en. Khairul came in, he straight away led us to the site... i guess he skipped the session because he already explained to us theoretically about the process during class before... and we start our 'journey'....
actually, i hate to admit this but i just dont get the feeling... i mean, i was not really interested during the visit... i barely could hear the explaination due to the eardrums-bursting sound of the working machines... not to mention... the smell...(again!!) and it was a HOT day... really it was... but at least i got to taste a 95% in concentration of ethanol... and Hazriq showed me one pic inside the tank... eurgh!!!!
after a thorough visit, we came back to the board room and we have some dialogue session... hahaha.. it was Dr. Harbant who asked most of the questions... then Malek handed the souvenier to the Fermpro representative..... then, we were treated with some refreshment while some of us chosed to have a look at en. Khairul's lab....

2.me+kurt+amy under the FERMPRO sign


3.some of the tanks...SOME of them bears a very 'good' smell...


4.inside 1 of the tank-pic that Hazriq showed me... wonder what'll happen if i fall into the tank...?


5.cooler...i bet you guys familiar with this right??DRAGON!!!


hmm....there are more pics but these will do for now... i'm blogging and at the same time am reading my notes... so dont highly expect to get something big from my blog.... huahahahaha!!!
okay... i have nothing else to blog(am really sleepy actually)....



peace!!
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